Day 1 without Tokbah
Last
night, I slept at Maktok’s room to accompany her on her first night without
Tokbah by her side. As usual, Maktok is always cool and composed.
“How was your sleep last night?”
“Alhamdulillah, I can sleep well.”
“Alhamdulillah, I can sleep well.”
This morning, after Subuh and the
morning routines, I started to work on my assignment. Actually, I had totally
forgotten about the work which is due on the upcoming Monday. Hmm. Besides, the
days before were busy, exhausting days too as I needed to replace my mother
temporarily at home. Tough ay being a mom? I’m not up to it yet, even being
single and child-less has a lot of responsibilities already maa.
Around 9 am, my little sister,
Qis had already started pestering me to play with her. “What do you wanna play,
kid?” “I don’t know.” “You wanna play but you don’t what to play ah? Aiya budak
ni.” “Okay, you wanna draw or paint or skipping or..?” In the end, I brought
her to sit outside to get some fresh air. Initially, I wanted to skip with her
but the skipping rope was missing from its place.
“Akak I cannot believe that
Tokbah is gone, I feel like Tokbah is still here,” said Wawa. “Maybe because
you hadn’t seen Tokbah during the whole process. Besides, Tokbah was always not
home these last few weeks as he was in the hospital ward.” I continued to eat
the Mamee Biskidz while staring ahead, emptily into the sky.
To be honest, his photos were
everywhere; above my door’s wooden frame, at his previous study table and in
the living room. How could we forget him? He was a part of our life.
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